Russell, I understand how you feel.
I'd leave for a while if I was in your situation. (I'd come back though!)
I love you man, you're like family to me, but I have a RAFcrush on you so thats a little weird..
Haha, I look forward to your return, I fully support you.
I miss you so much.. and I still demand a picnic in your field when I come and visit you!