New chapter.
CHAPTER SIXTEEN:
Well, This Seems Distracting
Cloak noticed that the gemstones became colorless and translucent a beat too late. He was feeling the influx of emotions -- so much that it was nearly overwhelming. He had to not let them get to him. These weren't his emotions, these weren't his colors. He wouldn't claim them for his own. They didn't belong to him. He hadn't any right to lay claim to them, nor did he want to. He saw these emotions as blurs of images, almost incomprehensible and completely muddled, muddied messes of color without any defined form or rhyme or reason to them.
But he was focused on what he had to do. He never once loosened his vice-like grip upon the white diamond. He continued to squeeze, as if he were squeezing the color out of that diamond. It was all he knew to do, instinctively.
The mongul cut gemstone shattered into dust.
Waves of color and feelings -- pleasurable ones, envious ones, affectionate ones, courageous ones, humiliating ones, and ones of shock -- assaulted his senses. He tried his best to ignore them and continue to squeeze the diamond, as if that was the only thing that he knew how to do.
The princess cut gemstone shattered into bits.
More images, still quite muddled and muddied by the infusion of vibrant colors, attacked his senses. Prideful ones, euphoric ones, angry ones, curious ones, ones pertaining to interest, and shy ones. But Cloak would not be swayed from what he felt that he must do.
The marquis cut gemstone shattered into shrapnel.
Still more images flew pass Cloak's vision. Raging ones. Fearful ones. Angsty ones. Depressing ones. Jealous ones. Sorrowful ones. But Cloak would not allow them to affect him.
"Divest yourself from your emotions, Cloak," he muttered. "These images are not yours. These emotions are not yours. Divest from them. Ignore them. They aren't yours."
The oval cut gemstone shattered into irreparable bits.
More images came -- remorseful ones, frustrated ones, anguishing ones, ones of desire, joyful ones, and suffering ones -- with Cloak unable to make any sense from them. Ill-defined shapes and contours. Cloak scolded himself for feeling these emotions. They were not his to feel. To feel them in this way would be akin to stealing them.
The heart cut gemstone shattered into tiny bits.
Even more images surrounded Cloak -- rejected ones, grateful ones, annoying ones, ones of despair, lonely ones, and surprising ones -- with Cloak unable to make heads-or-tails of it. But, as Cloak berated himself, he
shouldn't be trying to make heads-or-tails of it. They weren't Cloak's to comprehend or feel. They weren't his. They weren't . . .
The Asscher cut gemstone shattered into fragments so very small.
Images of rejection, grief, anticipation, and disappointment swarmed Cloak. Cloak tried to disspell them, treating them as if they were pesky gnats. These colors weren't his to claim, and he hadn't any intention to claim them.
The pear cut gemstone shattered into minuscule bits.
Images of resentment, guilt, anxiety, disgust, love, and trust.
"Go away," Cloak grunted with effort, "you're not mine to feel. You're not my colors."
The cushion cut gemstone shattered.
Images of sadness, happiness, awe, distrust, lust, and wonder.
"Leave me be," Cloak said, nettled.
The radiant cut gemstone shattered.
Images of
saudade, hatred, boredom, ecstasy, outrage, and worry.
"You're not mine," Cloak repeated his refrain.
The emerald cut gemstone shattered.
Images of
schadenfreude, hope, confidence, embarrassment, and panic.
"You're not mine."
The rose cut gemstone shattered.
Images of self-confidence, horror, contempt, empathy, and passion.
"Go away."
The prism itself shattered.
Images of shame, hostility, contentment, enthusiasm, and pity.
"Go. Away."
The white pearl shattered, and it was at this time that Cloak finally noticed that all the gemstones were shattered as well. Upon this realization, he accidentally shatters the white diamond as well.