New chapter.
CHAPTER NINETEEN:
Dark Thoughts and Black Markets
His head ached very badly, and he felt very sore at it.
He looked at himself and thought about what he'd become. He was little more than a parasite, a movie monster. He was sure that he wasn't like this in the Beforetime. He was sure that he loved himself, and others. But now? Now, he didn't love himself. He had come to hate what he was, what he's done. He came to loathe himself. He came to despise himself.
And, yet, the pain his head still would diminish.
It probably would if he gave into his instincts and found a host, then replicated again. Would stop if he became Trillion. It was a serious temptation, to just stop the pain his head, in his mind. To become a h--
Except he wouldn't, he reminded himself. He wouldn't be a hero, or a RAFian, if he committed to the same old tactic. He couldn't give in to the desire, the need -- no matter if even his head exploded from the migraine that he was electing to suffer through.
Then the pain went up to eleven.
He actually cried out, but it went unheard by others as it came out as but an anguished squeak to those with human levels of hearing. The temptation to skin and replicate increased expotentially with stab of pain.
He . . . he couldn't!
One wouldn't hurt would it?
No! No . . . he . . . he would not! He . . . he would not do it again!
Was one life really worth enduring this pain?
Yes! He mustn't do it. He . . . mustn't! He . . .
His will was beginning to deteriorate. The pain was mastering his will. The hunger was abetting the pain. . . .
No! He must be strong! What he had been doing as Hundred . . . as Thousand . . . as Million . . . as Billion . . . it was
WRONG! It . . . No! It wasn't right! It . . .
They deserved it, didn't they? They were stupid enough to --
No! There was no justifying it!
But he had every right to --
He let out anguished squeak, stumbling like a drunkard into the broad dawning daylight. This was half-hoping to be squished by an unsuspecting passerby's boot. Perhaps, in death, he would find his answers and freedom from this excruciating pain! Some relief!
Pain and hunger . . . they were corroding his will. They were exerting themselves over his will, which was beginning to crumble.
Please . . . just let someone squish him, and end this torment. Please . . . please . . . please . . . please, a quick death like that. . . . Death would be preferable to being this . . . this
monster. . . . Please . . .
THUNK!
He was suddenly surrounded on all sides by glass. Glass he couldn't penetrate! He was turned head over end and suddenly the ground was glass as well! No! They were to.squish him! Not entomb him in glass!
No! The hunger -- the pain -- they still gnaw at him!! No!! It was supposed to be a quick death!! Not a slow one by starving in a glass cylinder!!
No!!
***
"What did you do?" Ash said, clearly nauseated by the sight of the skin, and what it could possibly mean.
"Oh?" Malice said, with mock surprise. "Can't a girl just kidnap an overly saccharine, stupidly pious boy and break his mind and spirit?"
"What did you do to him?" Cloak demanded, voice steady, though the walls seemed to tremble. "What did you do to turn him into Billion?"
"Billion?" Malice ridiculed, tossing Lee's forgotten skin at them, and it was caught by Blue. "Pish-posh, dearie, he's probably '
Trillion' by now. That chemical ****tail I injected him with worked wonders! Such a pity that I didn't write down the formula. Hmmm . . . and I can't, for the life of me, remember what it was."
"What do you get out of this, Malice?" Cloak asked, managing to hide his true confusion at this whole scheme. "What's your endgame?"
"Uh uh," Malice said, wagging her finger, playfully reproachful, "dear boy, you know better about giving away
spoilers, don't you?"
"I am not in the mood for your
jokes, Malice!" Cloak snarled. "What are you
really after?!"
"Oh, let's just say, that the black market will have a new supply of bodysuits, methinks," she said, not really saying anything worthwhile.
"What do you
MEAN by --"
"Tootles!" Malice said, cheekily.
"No, you don't!" Cloak snarled, attempting to seize her by the arm, but it was too late. She had Walked away.
"
Gateburst!" Cloak fumed, frustrated.