((Get ready for emo-andalite. :p))
Ossanlin trots his way out to the lake near the bar and stands for a bit, then finds a particularly soft-looking patch of grass and "sits down", folding his front and hind legs under himself, his humanoid portion still upright, main eyes gazing out at the lake, reflecting the bright light of the stars and swirls of nebulae hanging in the night sky. He closes his eyes, the image staying in his mind, and breathes deeply, placing his hands in a meditative gesture. It had been some time since he'd done this, but it helped to relieve stress in particularly trying times. After just a few moments, he feels a very deep sadness. He couldn't remember the last time he'd felt like this. Was this truly how he felt under everyting else?
After a little more introspection, Ossanlin realizes quite suddenly that it is true. Without his command or a mission, or the bar or his Silver Blade energy to hide behind, to focus on, he becomes keenly aware of the fact and the feeling grows. No matter what he did or how much good he tried to accomplish in this multiverse, it didn't make any difference. What was the point? Why couldn't he be like so many others of his species...ignorant, arrogant, and ruthless? Compassion? Of course there was no room for it in war, Ossanlin knew that...and he could be ruthless if he had to be, but wouldn't it be easier to simply live the rest of his life, all of it, without compassion? Wouldn't it be happier to exist in ignorance? Being nice was a weakness, having compassion was a bother. How nice it might be to be rid of it. He continues to sit in silence, deep-ceded emotion bubbling forth and tearing him apart from within. <I really am alone aren't I?> The thought-speech not directed at anyone or anything.