Ardiss shrugs, "If I am, what's wrong with that? I had plans. I was going to be great. A Visser, if not more! And instead I find myself working underneath someone who thinks that in order to succeed you have to do things that -" Ardiss cuts off abruptly and sets her glass down with more force than necessary. Some red liquid splashes out, but Ardiss ignores it. When she continues her voice is more controlled, "Then I land on this hunk of rock and even my plans for going my own direction are fouled. I'm out a host, a ship. I'm at the mercy of Yeerks I barely know, who are rebels."
There's nothing wrong with being upset that your plans are ruined. I am no fool. I know that I must move forward with this new life, whatever it may be. But that does not mean that I have to be jumping for joy over it."