Chapter Two: Mixed EmotionsFrom the Diary of KellyDreams. They are strange things in your head. They only come when you close your eyes and sleep peacefully.
Some people say that dreams are your imagination shaping a picture story for you. Others say they are a channel to your subconscious mind. Dreams can be enjoyable or downright terrifying. And when you wake up, the dream is over. The nightmares are gone and you are safe in your bedroom.
Then why...? Why am I so afraid of them? Why did it result to running from home? They were only dreams. Why on earth would I ever think they could come true? I must be ridiculous to think that.
Then let me ask you something... Have you ever had a dream of taking a school test and the next day, you’re given a pop quiz? When that happened, were you surprised? Did you wonder that if you had taken the dream seriously, you could have hit the books in advance? Maybe get an A on the quiz?
Has that ever happened to you?
...Should I tell you what happened three weeks ago? Maybe, you’ll understand better.
Three weeks ago, I dreamt I was alone and in front of a house.
The door creaked open by itself. It gave a terrible creaking sound. Inside the house was completely dark and no matter how hard I tried to look, I couldn’t see what was inside the shadows.
Immediately, I knew it was like any dream I always had.
Something bad was going to happen.
I was shaking. I wanted to run away but my legs wouldn’t budge. I kept on staring into the darkness.
Out from the darkness, a girl appeared. She was tired, as if she had struggled with something inside the house and only managed to escape. She looked at me, begging me to help her.
Suddenly, skinny but shadowy and monstrous arms reached out, oozing from the darkness and grasped her shoulders. She opened her mouth but nothing came out. She tried to break free but couldn’t. The fingers began melting, slowly covering over her torso. Then her legs and arms. Then slowly but lastly, her head.
Like she was being devoured. To become part of...whatever was in there.
Soon, her eyes turned completely black.
I wanted to scream! I wanted to move! I wanted to grab her arm and pull her out!
I wanted the nightmare to stop!
Then I woke up. Sweating. Crying. And in my room... But the time on my clock still read 3 AM.
Three hours. Three more hours left of this torture.
I hated it.
I didn’t go back to sleep for three hours. And when I didn’t sleep, I was thinking of what the dream meant.
I would always ask the same questions. Why did I have such a dream? What was it trying to tell me? What did it all mean?
I didn’t know what the darkness or the shadowy arms meant. But I knew whose house that was in my dream. I knew who the person was.
She was my best friend.
CassieLiving close to the woods has some good points besides being the closest animal clinic for any wounded, captured or sick animals. There’s no noise pollution or a lot of cars from the city limits. And at night, I can hear sounds from the nocturnal animals coming out of their homes.
I walked out of my house, greeted by the evening breeze. It was nice and cooling for a nice stroll but not that night. I had already finished dinner so I decided to check on the animals. Even though Jake said we could relax, I couldn't find myself to take a break.
So I'm a bit of a workaholic. It can’t be helped when I’m helping my parents with the clinic and the barn.
There are two severely injured animals that needed attention. A baby squirrel was brought in yesterday, with no mother. And a raccoon needed clean bandages on its nearly burnt tail.
As I walked into the barn, I saw Ax inside. I was surprised to see him again. Earlier, he had said he would head to his scoop to watch his programs. Luckily, it was late and my parents were staying inside so it was safe for him to be here.
However, his visit this time was different than usual. Ax looked greatly worried. His eyes were wide open. His tail whipped about anxiously. He also seemed extremely tired, like he was heavily trying to catch his breath. Did he gallop all the way here at high speed?
“Hey, Ax. What are you doing here?”
His two stalk eyes gazed at me. It took a while longer for his other eyes to face me.
“Ax?” I called. I started to get concerned.
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Ax!> Tobias also arrived, flying into the barn and perching above us. <
Ax, are you ok? You were running so fast. You didn’t even stop when I called out to you.>
<
I...I am not fine...> said Ax. <
I’m...not sure if I am.>
Ok, now I was worried. “Ax, did something happen? Did someone see you?”
He shook his head. <
No! No...I made sure of that...>
<
Then what’s wrong?>
Ax was still trying to catch his breath. Or maybe to calm himself down. Something must have really alarmed him to such a state. Could it be the Yeerks?
<
Cassie,> he said. <
There is something wrong with me... I think I am ill again.>
“What?” I uttered.
That was indeed bad news. I was kind of hoping we wouldn’t have to worry about anymore Andalite sicknesses for a while.
Recently, Ax suffered from an inflamed gland that nearly threatened his life. And it also affected the others, making them gravely ill. I was the only one left unaffected, not only to save a Yeerk freedom fighter from Visser Three but also to do a successful brain surgery with the help of the same Yeerk I rescued.
And to hear he has come over with another illness...
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Oh boy,> Tobias uttered. <
I’ll get the others.>
He took off, leaving me and Ax alone.
“Tell me the symptoms,” I asked him.
Part of me was hoping it wouldn’t be another inflamed gland or organ. I don’t think I could take another operation. Even on Ax, at that.
No, I shouldn’t think like that. This is Ax, our friend. And I’ll do whatever I can to help him get better.
<
Um... My face started to feel hot and wet. My heart was beating very fast...and I had this rotating feeling in my abdomen,> he explained, placing a hand on his stomach. <
I thought I was feeling unwell again...>
“When was that?”
<
I only experienced this unusual feeling when I was in human morph today.>
Huh. I wondered if it was ‘our’ kind of sicknesses. But most of us have never been sick during our time as animals. Except if we were ‘allergic’ to our morphs. And I doubt Ax was allergic to his human morph.
<
It happened when I met this female human on my way to the scoop. I suddenly felt this way when she talked and smiled at me.>
Wait... Did he say what I think he said?
There was a long pause between us.
<
Cassie, why is your mouth stretching like that?>
Yes, I was smiling. I was smiling so broadly at the news. I still couldn’t believe what had happened. I also couldn’t believe Ax thought this was an illness.
I never thought this day would come.
“Ax, you’re not ill,” I told him. “You’re lovesick.”
He relaxed a bit from my diagnosis. But he was also puzzled.
<
Is that something bad? Should I worry?>
I almost wanted to laugh. How do you tell an alien what lovesick is?
“No, of course not. It’s nothing bad.” I waited, giving him time to prepare. “It means you really like someone.”
His four eyes blinked. <
Like...someone...?>
I could tell the information was slowly registering in his head. It was a moment later that his eyes finally grew big. His expression was like he had gasped out of shock.
He freaked out right in the barn.
<
What!? That cannot be true! I am ill! Not...not...!>
He couldn’t finish his sentence. He couldn’t say “in love”.
I have to admit, it was sort of cute that Ax was experiencing love. Maybe for the first time. But I also wondered if it wasn’t a good idea to explain his feelings. Ax was totally baffled that he could possibly have feelings for a human.
“Ax, calm down. It’s natural to like someone.”
<
It is not when I am an Andalite and she is a human! This is absurd! So...wrong!> he hollered.
I wasn’t sure if I could agree with him there. Love between two different people, um, I mean species, didn’t sound ridiculous to me. In a way, it sounded romantic.
Then again, it could turn messy.
<
This has to be a human thing!> Ax continued. <
Yes, that is it! I read a book that humans become attracted to another for companionship because of a chemical release in their bodies! That is correct, right?>
“Um, yeah?” Where on earth did he read that?
<
So all I need to feel better is to clear away this chemical release when I am a human! Cassie, do you know how to prevent it?>
Ok, I did not know how to answer that. I mean...this sort of thing just happens...
When you meet someone you like...time seems to stop around you. Maybe it’s because what he looks like. Or how he talks to you. How he looks at you with those eyes. And all you want to do is...to be with him more.
...Um! Putting that aside!
“W-Well... If you stop seeing this girl, I’m sure you’ll get better in no time.”
It sounded harsh but that was the only solution I could think of. And it would be better. While it was fun to see Ax liking someone other than cinnamon buns, it might not be safe. There was no telling if the girl he liked was a Controller or not.
And worse, if she were to discover our secret.
Ax’s shoulders quickly slugged down. Like he was dejected at the idea. <
But...I cannot stop thinking about her.> He then folded his arms stubbornly. <
Of course, I was certain she was somehow testing my patience. And she was a very strange human.>
Excuses. They were all excuses. Why are guys like this?
<
But...> Ax relaxed himself. <
I like listening to her talk... And I find her unusually colored eyes fascinating... She is unlike any human I have met.>
Aw, that was sweet. One minute, he was giving excuses why a relationship between an Andalite like him and a human wouldn’t work. The next, he was saying the good points about her, whoever she was.
This was a classic sign of a crush. I still couldn’t believe I was here to see it happen. An alien was having a crush on someone. And it was a human.
Then again, if Marco was here to joke about it, I think Ax would be humiliated beyond doubt.
Hang on... What did he mean she had unusually colored eyes?
<
B-But that is not to say that she is a better human than all of you!> Ax exclaimed. <
You and the others are my close friends here. It is just...>
“She’s a new friend to you.”
He stopped and stared at me with bewildered eyes.
From what I had gathered, it seemed to me that Ax has made another friend. Other than us. I was happy for him because most of the time, any person he met as a human would quickly leave. And it didn’t seem like he would easily accept his new feelings for a human. Not yet, anyway.
Gradually, he looked more satisfied to the idea that the girl was a friend. Nothing more. Nothing less.
Good, because if he believed otherwise, he was for sure going to keep on coming up with assumptions about hormones and attraction between the opposite sex. Just to rebuff his feelings.
<
Yes... A new friend. She is a friend,> he stated and looked at me for help. <
Cassie, what should I do?>
Maybe, it was better that way. If I had fallen in love with someone outside my own species, I would think I have gone out of my mind. And it would probably be nerve-racking for this girl too if she’d find out an alien had a crush on her.
“It’ll be okay,” I told him. “We’ll figure something out.”
His eyes became meaningful. He let out a deep sigh of relief. <
Thank you, Cassie.>
Once he loosened up, we waited for the others to arrive. In the meantime, I went to attend the two injured animals.
It actually didn’t take too long. The time the others took to get here was awfully quick. They had raced to the barn in bird morph. Flying as fast as their wings could take them to reach the barn. They looked like they had panicked uncontrollably when they first heard the news from Tobias.
“Is it true he’s sick again!?” Jake instantly yelled the moment he pushed the barn doors open.
Yup. They lost their nerves.
“He’d better not be!” Marco shouted. “Because baby aspirin is the one thing I don’t want coming to haunt me anytime soon! Ax! You better have a good reason to be sick!”
<
Uh...>
He was reluctant to speak. So I shrugged my shoulders and gladly stepped in.
“It’s alright, everyone,” I told them. “It was a false alarm. He’s not sick.”
“Then what?” Rachel demanded. “Seriously! I do not want to go starving to death for another whole week!”
“And why are you smiling, Cassie?” Jake questioned.
I had not realized myself I had been smiling the whole time since they arrived. I actually couldn’t wait to tell them, wondering what their reactions would be if they heard about Ax’s new friendship with another person.
But I knew that once they heard, there would be issues.
That Ax met a stranger alone – even if he was in human morph. That whether or not if she could be a Controller. And if it would be harmless or not to allow Ax to continue meeting this girl.
“Come on, Cassie! Out with it,” Marco uttered impatiently.
But for now, what the heck. I’d tell them.
“Well, Ax has a crush on a girl.”
I swear all four pairs of eyes were as wide as dinner plates.
“WHAT!?”
Ax nearly jumped when everyone shouted all at once.
“You got to be kidding us!” Rachel hollered in disbelief.
“Nope,” I said with an honest smile.
“No way!” Marco shouted. “Excuse me but Ax-man likes a human being!? A normal person that may be prettier than Xena here? A normal down-to–earth individual that’s WAY more-”
A stomp on his foot quickly shut him up. He hopped about in agony.
<
Ax, is this true?> Tobias asked.
Ax didn’t answer. He looked a little embarrassed to admit it so he nodded his head instead.
“Unbelievable! And I thought it was impossible for you to interact with people.” Jake let out a laugh.
“Unless this person is blind. Or just plain nuts. This is Ax here. Everyone who meets him thinks he’s abnormal with his word playing and gluttony over food. Which is absolutely true!” Marco exclaimed, rubbing his sore foot.
“Oh, be quiet,” Rachel spat. Turning to Ax, she grinned widely and asked, “So who’s the lucky girl you’ve fallen head over heels on?”
<
I did not pull my head over my heels, Rachel.>
“No. What she means who did you fall in love with?” Jake explained.
That stopped him. His eyes once again widened. Uh oh. He was about to blow out his denial again.
“He didn’t fall in love with anyone, guys.” I stepped again. “He just made a new friend.”
Ax glanced at me and was thankful for the save.
<
Yes. A new friend. That is what it is... Just a friend.>
<
Wait. What about the crush?> Tobias asked, confused.
“He only experiences it whenever he’s in human morph,” I answered. “And with this girl.”
<
Yes, that is it. It is just a new human experience. Nothing to do with my Andalite self. I truly cannot see myself feeling affection for a human.>
“Ax, you shouldn’t feel ashamed just because you really like this girl,” Jake pointed out.
“Never mind about that.” Rachel was now the one impatient. “What’s this girl’s name?”
<
...She calls herself Kelly,> Ax replied, still looking embarrassed.
Kelly... I’ve heard the name before. Was this girl the same one I knew from school?
“Kelly!?” Marco suddenly yelled, bolting from his seat.
“You know her?” said Rachel.
“The Kelly from school? As in THE Oddball Kelly!?” he continued to shout.
“Oddball? Isn’t that a bit harsh?” I said.
“Oh, right. That Kelly,” Rachel said. “So you do know her?”
“Of course I know her! She’s in the same Science as I am! Ax! Don’t go near her. She’s devious! What’s more, she could be a Controller!”
“Marco, are you still angry at her?” Jake questioned, raising an eyebrow.
“Angry?” Rachel uttered. “Ok, what did you do to make her look the other way?”
“What are you implying I did anything? SHE was the one who did turn a nice conversation to a painful one.”
“Well, any girl would do that to you. You must have said something pretty corny to her and she turned you down for that.”
“I didn’t say anything!”
“Right, just keep saying that. So Jake, tell us exactly how it happened.”
“You don’t remember? Two weeks ago.”
She thought for a moment. “Oooh,” she sang wickedly. “That was her? She saw you and rejected you straight away, am I right?”
“She did no such thing! I didn’t even have a chance to show her my charming side,” Marco snapped.
“As if you had one. You weren’t even her type.”
Now I was curious about what happened between this girl and Marco. “So what did happen?”
“Can we not have a flashback? I’m still recovering from the incident,” he begged.
Rachel, however, ignored him and told the story. “Remember the dance last Friday?”
How could I not remember? Rachel was the one who had to push me and Jake together before the dance. Then it had to end badly when Ax was starting to demorph in a hall full of people because of an Andalite illness.
I could tell Jake remembered as well as I did. His face became red.
“Well, two weeks ago,” Rachel continued. “Marco here found out Kelly had no one to go to the dance and decided to ask her out before we all got sick. When he finally got the courage to ask her, guess what her answer was? She said no and left. The idiot just stood there, frozen with his mouth wide open.”
“My mouth wasn’t gapping!”
<
And now we know that,> Tobias declared. <
So, Ax how did you two meet?>
<
Well...we didn’t exactly meet at first. She came unexpectedly and I was not in human morph then.>
All five of us were horrified to hear that. And we feared the worst.
“Ax! What were you thinking? She could have seen you!” Jake hollered.
<
No, no! She did not see me. I quickly hid before that could happen.>
That was a relief.
“So tell me you weren’t dumb enough to approach her as an Andalite and not as a human,” said Marco.
<
Of course not. I would not do such a thing to expose us. But I did not morph and move to her yet. She was riding on a machine she called a ‘bike’ before she fell off. A very dangerous contraption, it was.>
Jake took a seat on a bale of hay. “We never told you about bikes before, did we?”
<
No. But I hope you can explain to me more about them later. Nevertheless, I approached to her as a human after I saw these triangular-shaped food that had fallen from her carrier and–>
“Wait, there was food involved?” Rachel asked.
<
Yes. Very delicious food. Why do you ask?>
She nearly burst out with laughter. Marco slapped his face and Jake shook his head with a weak smile. I giggled.
Ax would do just about anything to get a taste of something edible. He even tried to eat popcorn off the floor last time. It was obvious how Ax met Kelly.
“Nothing. Go on,” said Jake.
<
I wanted to try the food so I morphed and took one. I have never tried anything like it. It was magnificent! Kelly called it a sandwich.>
“You took her food?” I cried out.
“Whoa, Ax-man. Didn’t know you had it in you,” Marco said, snickering.
<
I had what in me?>
Marco rolled his eyes. “You know, stealing.”
<
I would not be that low, Marco. And she had more than one food. However, she also had an animal for a pet present. A dog. When I took one, the animal discovered me and... Well, I got terrified. I jumped and she jumped too.>
“What happened next?” The more I listened, the more I felt excited to hear the next part.
<
It became strange after that. She was not angry at me for taking her sandwich. Rather, she laughed uncontrollably and told me I could have asked if I wanted one. I did not understand why she found it amusing.>
“And then what?” Rachel asked eagerly.
<
We...just talked. Then, I left.>
“That’s it? No fireworks?”
<
No. There were no fireworks in the sky. It was not nighttime yet.>
“She means did anything
special happen?” said Marco.
<
No...but it was interesting talking to her.>
Rachel looked disappointed. I guess she thought there would be more to that. Maybe, she wanted to hear kissing or hands being held. A romantic ending between Ax and a human girl.
<
Also, at the same time, she puzzled me. When she was on the ground, she reached out her hand and attempted to grab the sky, which I know is an illogical objective. And she spoke of things that did not make sense. Like ‘Manitók’–>
“The what?” Marco uttered.
<
Manitók. Kelly told me that it meant ‘spirits’ in Algonquin. A language of a human race, the Native Americans.>
Huh. I was surprised to hear that Kelly knew a lot about Native Americans. Then again, I’ve never really heard Kelly ever talk about things like that.
I didn’t know Kelly that well. Just that she was in the same English class as I was. We did talk a bit when it came to asking help for composition but other than that, she hadn’t told me much about herself.
But she was a nice person. Even if we didn’t talk much, she’d gladly start a conversation. And when she talked, I didn’t feel uncomfortable around her. That was the same with almost everyone I saw her with. She would talk candidly with a friend or two.
Kelly had a talent for making lots of friends. It was no wonder why she didn’t back away from Ax like people normally would do.
I wondered what made her not think Ax wasn’t a weird person to retreat from in the first place.
<
About half of the time I spent with her, she explained to me to some extent but the other half, I had a hard time understanding her. Kelly is a very strange human.>
“That’s what I’ve been telling people!” Marco exclaimed. Rachel shoved an elbow to keep him quiet.
<
However, I do find her strangeness and her food intriguing... I have never seen a human like her before.>
<
But you like her?> Tobias asked. <
As a friend?>
Ax hesitated for a moment and thought deeply. Gradually, his eyes smiled.
<
Yes... Yes, I like her. I find her peculiar and I like that about her.>
“Finally,” Rachel uttered. “Someone that doesn’t run away from Ax after the first five minutes. Unlike Marco here.”
“Oh, sure! The oddball goes friendly on the alien but not me! What am I, chopped liver?” Marco yelled.
<
I am positive you are not chopped liver, Marco,> said Ax.
“Geez, thanks. That makes me feel so much better.”
<
By the way, what is an oddball?>
“It means someone with an odd personality,” Jake explained.
<
Ah. That term does suit her. She is a very odd human indeed. She was constantly delighted the entire time we talked.>
“She was happy?”
<
Yes and for what reason, I do not know.>
“Huh. Guess she’s not depressed anymore.”
“Depressed?” Rachel repeated. “Did something happen to her?”
“Well, I noticed she had been looking miserable lately at school.”
“Come to think of it, she looked down in the dumps when I was asking her to the dance,” Marco pointed out.
“You sure it wasn’t you?” Rachel intoned.
Jake and Marco weren’t the only ones who noted something different about Kelly. I noticed it too.
Kelly had always smiled cheerfully at school for as long as I could remember. She was the most positive person I know. She would hardly ever be sad, angry or irritated. So it was a shock to see her expression changed one day.
I could still remember. It was three weeks ago.
She was brought to class by her mom. It was also the first time I saw one of her parents with her. But I think I understood why her mom went along.
Everyone in class immediately noticed the complete change.
Kelly was different that day. Her clothes were wrinkled, like she had slept in them for days. She had such a deep sad eye, staring aimlessly at the floor. She barely moved to her desk that her mom had to help her out. Her mom constantly told her that it was alright but it didn’t look like Kelly was listening.
Her mom then talked to the teacher. I couldn’t hear much but from the look and his reassuring nod the teacher gave, I could tell something terrible had happened to Kelly.
Kelly’s mom thanked him, gazed at her daughter worriedly and said her goodbye before she left.
I had the urge to ask what was wrong but her friends got to her first. Asking “Are you alright, Kelly?”, “Was that your mom? How come she brought you to school today?”, “Did something happen, Kelly?”or “Kelly, do you hear me? You’re started to worry me.”
Kelly didn’t reply. She didn’t say anything. Not even when class started and everyone went back to their seats.
I was the only one who could not turn my attention from her to the whiteboard. Kelly didn’t take out her books or listen to the teacher. Instead, she glanced up to the window and stared endlessly for the entire period.
She reminded me of a lifeless doll. She was lethargic to even care about anything. I was afraid she would collapse soon.
It was as if she wasn’t in this world anymore.
I wanted to go up to her and talk. But instead, I believed that even if I tried, she might not speak to me too. I believed that if I left her alone, she would go back to her old happy self.
But she didn’t for three weeks. In English class, I would see her stare at the window again and again. During lunch, she wouldn’t be in the cafeteria but sitting in front of her locker with arms wrapped around her knees. At the beginning, a lot of her friends would approach her, asking questions and trying to make her feel better.
Gradually, one by one, they stopped talking to her. Maybe thinking the same thing as I was. She would be alright if they gave her time alone.
But now that I think about it, it may have been the wrong thing to do.
“Hey,” I called. “Did you guys notice that her parents came to school yesterday?”
“Now that you mentioned it, yeah,” said Jake. “They were looking for Kelly, right?”
“Actually, I just realized something. I haven’t seen her in Science for two days now,” Marco pointed out.
“Yeah, you’re right,” Rachel agreed. “One of her friends asked me if I’ve seen her too. And her parents, too.”
I didn’t like where this was going. “They handed you a picture of Kelly, right?”
“You got one?”
I nodded. Now I knew I should have talked to her.
Two days ago, Kelly stopped going to school. There were rumors that the reason she was depressed was because of a relative or friend who passed away recently. I was so used to seeing her in high spirits that it suddenly felt awkward when she didn’t come to class.
What was more, I saw her parents restlessly waiting outside the school yesterday, handing out flyers and asking questions to everyone. And everybody shook their heads.
Her mom came up to me and asked, “Excuse me. Have you seen my daughter, Kelly?”
She gave me a flyer. And on the flyer was a picture of Kelly. With her jolly smile. Below the picture was the word, “MISSING”.
I was shocked. Kelly was missing?
Her mom gazed at me, wretchedly hopeful.
“No,” I regretfully said to her. “I haven’t. Sorry.”
Her hope was quickly replaced by sadness.
Kelly’s father soon joined us, moving his wheelchair closer. On his lap were a thick stack of flyers. He grasped her hand to comfort her with a light but troubled smile.
“Honey,” her mom whimpered, biting her lower lip. “There’s still no sign of our little Kelly! Where could she have gone?”
“It’s alright, dear. I’m sure she’s fine,” he assured her. “Horatio is with her and that’s good enough. You said it yourself. That dog is her guardian angel.”
“But how can I
not worry? She hasn’t come home yesterday!”
“Did something to Kelly?” I asked them.
“...A very bad incident happened some time ago...and it affected her a lot,” Kelly’s dad explained as best as he could. But I knew he wasn’t telling the whole story. “We believe she’s missing because of that.”
“My poor little girl! She is out there on her own and those good-for-nothing police cops aren’t doing anything to find her! What if she doesn’t have enough to eat? And it has been cold these few nights! Oh, Kelly! Where are you?”
This was a very overprotective parent. Kelly’s mom was greatly concerned, shaking her free arm up and down uneasily.
She then settled down. “I should have seen it. I’m her mother and what did I do? I let this happen...”
“It’s not your fault, dear. Don’t blame yourself,” Kelly’s dad reassured her again and turned to me. “How much do you know Kelly? What is she like at school?”
“Um...I don’t entirely know Kelly that well... But in school, she is a very cheerful person.”
I partly lied. I should have said she was a cheerful person.
“Yup. That is Kelly, alright,” he laughed. “But...it is true she is not always open about herself to others. And to us, as well... When we want to ask what is wrong, she‘ll hold back. I guess we’re afraid that if we push too hard...Kelly might close up forever.”
I hadn’t thought of it like that. I had always assumed Kelly was just a optimistic girl who loved to chat. But from her parents, I have learnt that an unbreakably happy-go person like her...was actually brittle.
Kelly’s dad sighed deeply. “We are her parents. We love her very much. But we should have tried harder for her... I’m sorry to take your time.”
“It’s ok.”
“...I am glad Kelly has many friends, including you.”
On the spot, I was guilty. I had no right to be called a friend. I didn’t even come up to her and help her.
But the father’s serene smile seemed to tell me that it was alright, even if I did nothing at the beginning. Just hearing about his daughter was enough.
“Thank you,” he said gratefully. “And, if it’s alright with you, could you ask your friends if they’ve seen her-”
All of a sudden, Kelly’s mom grabbed the pile of flyers and tossed them up into the air. I was stunned she did that but also upset that she was littering. But as I watched them fly about, I noticed they were catching the attention of people around us.
The paper flying somehow gave me an impression.
It was like snow at the end of summer.
When I turned back, I saw Kelly’s mom grinning widely but weakly at me. Her eyes then watered.
A grown woman was crying in front of me.
“Please. If you see our little girl, tell her to come home,” her mom pleaded. “Kelly is family to us.”
I realized then, Kelly’s doting parents would do anything to search for her. I could only imagine how my parents would feel if I went missing. And they would stop at nothing until they found me and we were reunited.
As the flyers drifted slowly to the ground, her husband smiled gently at her and held her hand tight. Kelly’s mom lowered her head, enough for him to reach and wipe away her tears. And with that, they left to continue their search.
And now, we have found out Ax has met Kelly in person.
“Ax, where did you meet Kelly?” I asked.
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In the woods. That is where she is currently staying tonight.>
Kelly gone missing. Her bike. Staying in the woods...
“I think she’s running away from home.”
“Why would she do that?” Rachel asked me.
“Maybe she found out her parents are Controllers and she’s on the run,” Marco exclaimed.
“Yeeeah. I don’t think they could be Controllers. Kelly’s dad is on a wheelchair. And her mom is...somewhat a little eccentric,” Jake pointed.
“Jake, how could you say that about her mother? She was really worried about Kelly when I saw her,” I scolded lightly.
“Yeah, but that’s what some people call her,” Jake admitted, shrugging his shoulders. “And we don’t know if she could be one. Of course, I can’t tell if a Yeerk would or wouldn’t take the time to act exactly how she would.”
“Kinda agree with you there. This morning, she literally went through all the dumpsters and trash bins, screaming, “Kelly, are you there?”,” said Rachel. “I know. I saw her taking the lid of my bin.”
“Did she find a dead body in yours?” Marco intoned.
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Kelly did not run away because of her parents. She had another reason for that,> Ax clarified.
“Which is?” Jake uttered.
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She told me that she has her own problem and did not wish to worry her parents. She explained it was because of her dreams.>
“Dreams?”
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Yes. Apparently, they frightened her.> Ax’s eyes grew concerned. <She would not admit it but I could tell she did not like her dreams.>
“She ran away because of nightmares? But dreams are a natural thing. We all dream,” I stated.
“Like how Rachel dreams of being a gorgeous model,” Marco droned, twitching his eyebrows up and down.
“Oh, shut up,” she hissed.
<
Yes. Dreams are pleasant mental images we have. However, they seem real and startling to her that she is afraid of them. She believes that they may come true and hurt a person. I do not understand why.>
“Hurt?” Rachel repeated. “How can something from your head hurt someone? Are you sure you heard it right?”
“Okay, it’s officially. She’s like her mom. Crazy mom and crazy daughter. Ax, I suggest you stay away from her. We’ll just scare her away as wolves and we can go back to our normal lives,” Marco said.
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Since when have our lives ever been normal?> Tobias muttered.
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She is not crazy. She is distressed,> said Ax, sounding defensive. <
She may be a strange human but I only know that that is her reason for leaving behind her family and her home.>
“Somehow, it sounds more like an excuse to skip class to me,” said Rachel.
“Still, we’d better keep watch over her. Now that she’s in the woods, who knows what she might do. If she sees Ax, that’s the end of it,” Jake explained.
“We’ll be having another member in this group,” Marco intoned. Rachel punched him. Hard.
“Let’s not think about that,” Jake groaned. “For now, we’ll watch her. Hopefully, she’ll return back to her family without any problems. Tobias, you keep an eye on her tonight.”
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Sure thing,> Tobias said.
“And Ax, from now on, stay away from Kelly. Don’t go near her until this whole thing blows over.”
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But-> Ax started but Jake cut him short.
“I mean it, Ax. We’re happy that you’ve made a friend but you can’t keep meeting her. She could mean trouble.”
Ax quickly became unhappy. It almost broke my heart to see him like that. It felt as if we had suddenly punished him by taking away his favorite cinnamon buns. But he understood the situation at stake.
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...I understand, Prince Jake.>
After that, Jake dispersed us and everyone left for the night. Tobias flew off to search for Kelly and Ax went straight to the scoop.
Just as I was about to close the barn doors, I swore I saw something at the corner of my eye.
Not too far away, there was a person standing amidst the trees. I wasn’t sure if it was a man or a woman but the person looked like a motorcyclist. Or I think it was. The black helmet and suit were...unnatural. A faded neon blue color glowed from tube-like streamlines over her legs, arms and shoulders.
And that person was looking straight at me.
It startled me. I immediately flung the doors open. Was she there when everyone left? Had she seen us?
But the person was no longer there.
Was it my imagination?
Her name was Roxanne.
We have been friends for a long time. She lived next door to me and we went to school together.
We are completely opposite but somehow, that made a good friendship. I used to afraid of new things, meeting new people. But it was Roxanne who came up to me and pushed me forward. Thanks to her, I am more confident talking to people now.
Roxanne was different from me. She was never afraid of what people thought of her. If she had something in her mind, she would speak it out without being humiliated.
I think...I was a bit envious of her. Roxanne was more strong-willed than me. She didn’t care if people had an opinion about her. I, on the other hand, have many things about myself to care. She was even good-looking than me. Maybe it was because she was in the swim team and I didn’t do any sports.
However, I was no longer green with envy when I understood that she was like me.
She sat beside me in every Maths and Science and always, she said one guy in Science class was cute. I had teased her once that she didn’t have the guts to ask him out. She laughed boldly and said, “Perhaps I should do that. But you know me, I’m just yellow.”
She’d admit it without feeling ashamed. But I realized that she was really afraid to go up to the guy she liked. Just like I would be if people were to what makes me different.
Roxanne was that type of girl. Proud and energetic. And I was happy to have a friend like her.
Then one day, on our way to school, I told her about the dream. At first, I was scared that she’d think I was a weirdo. Although she didn’t think that, she found my imagination funny. Roxanne then said not to worry about her. If she saw the monster in my dream, she’d punch its lights out.
She told me that she was my best friend and she’d never leave me.
So I smiled. As usual, I would later forget about the dream. I have always ignored them before. I mean, they were just dreams...
Three days later, Roxanne’s mom called me. That day was Friday movie night for me and Bax while our parents left for dinner together. We’d have something you’d call a sibling tradition. We’d trade tasks every Friday: one makes the popcorn and the other rents a very good movie.
I had wondered if she was calling me about Roxanne. She didn’t come to school the day before.
But I never realized it would be anything bad from that call. It began alright at first. Her mom asked how I was and all. Slowly, she started to sob between sentences at the other end.
But soon...she went to the point.
Roxanne died the night before.
It came unexpected...like a train had hit me hard. But it felt worse. All my life, I’ve thought that they were just dreams. That nothing bad could come from them...
I was so wrong. I was in my own world until reality struck... And it was too late to realize that.
I had lost my best friend.
The following week, I attended Roxanne’s funeral. The rain was bringing back an old feeling. The same one I had when I was a child.
Alone. Terrified. Tired. And with no memories.
I was back where I had started nine years ago...before Chogan found me. And looking down at the grave didn’t make things better.
I had enough of this pain. I wanted it to end. I wanted the nightmares to stop. That was why I ran.
That is why I am scared. I have come to realize these dreams aren’t normal. But even if they were true, I know nobody would believe it.
Even if someone was in my dreams and I could warn them, they’d think I was crazy. Even if I could keep on ignoring the dreams, something could happen to someone.
Either way, I knew they were going to hurt someone.
Vickie: YELLOW ALL, I'm still not dead and uploaded Chapter Two.
Marco: Wait a minute! I got a no in the old version and this version, I get another NO for an answer! ? WHY THE HECK ARE YOU MAKING GIRLS DISLIKE ME! ? I’m supposed to be the loveable one!
Vickie: Yes but in all of the books I’ve read, you’re the comedy guy. Plus, like Rachel said, you’re not exactly Kelly’s type.
Marco: ...You’re evil, aren’t you?
Vickie: I am.
Now go to your corner and sulk at your dejection like a good little boy.
Marco: I AM NOT DEJECTED OR SULKING! –goes to a corner anyway–
Vickie: Riiight, keep saying that. And now this author note. Hopefully, I captured better on Ax’s very weak progression in the love department without taking away his egotistical Andalite self. And I think he’d easily like the idea that Kelly is a new friend rather than a love interest. It would have problems if it was.
However, I am happy that I’m writing a slow but hilarious friendship between them. XD
Cough, anyway, hopefully you readers are enjoying this chapter of an Andalite’s growing friendship for another person BESIDES the Animorphs. And I’ll hurry with the next chapter, which I think will be a much different take than the original one.
And to NateSean, thank you for the review. I'm glad you you find the diary entries interesting and the way I want them to go. Although, the diary entries are intended for each chapter and the events. My further chapters will have links with the diary entries. It might make be confusing for readers to have two threads and frustrating if one entry isn't together with the specific chapter and makes no sense. Thank you for the proposal but I'd like to keep the entries together with the chapters.
Wait...what RPG? No really, I've been away from RAF for too long. ASK ANYONE.
Yeeeeah, that I think I had intended to write indulge but wrote it wrong...cough...yup
....corrected it... Thank you for pointing out.
And now, to end my note, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL IN RAF AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! :3