Myitt favors Jeffrey with a bland smile. "Thanks," she murmurs. "It is...a nice thought."
She sucks in a deep breath and sighs, looking Ossanlin up and down. The tremors are still there, as is the burning need for more, so distracting she may as well be in a Taxxon host.
Her fingers twitch as she explains.
"You are right to be angry with me, Ozzy. I vanished without a trace, and that wasn't like me. You know that I'm no fair-weather friend." Myitt pauses, drumming her fingers again on the bar counter, rather pleased at how well her fortitude is holding up - all things considered.
"We've moved bases since you last saw me, and we've acquired more than a few new enemies and allies. Some of them are Andalites, but mostly the same tired old brigade of Imperial generals. Yes, even one of those is a tentative ally." She smiles more genuinely. "There were good times, too, in the last few years. I met a guy, a Yeerk, who like...really gets me. And I'm not exactly easy to get. And his host was..." She hesitates, feeling the sick rush of grief once more, and she swallows the bitterness back with a shrug. "He got me, too."
"There was so much turmoil, but I had so much friendship and support. Corliss and Reven, they're still doing fine. And I felt so buffered by all this distraction, the stress of the move, that I didn't need outside friends. So I didn't need you. And I should have at least reached out to you, in the interim. I...I understand that, now. I...I guess I was afraid I would bother you." Her ears burn with embarrassment, and she looks down at her knuckles. "I'm sorry. I just can't lose another friend right now. I really can't. I'm not...not in the best place." Tears sting her eyes again and she curses, brushing them away angrily.